The warm sunshine was flooding the tent when Diana awoke from the deep
sleep of exhaustion that had been almost insensibility, awoke to
immediate and complete remembrance. One quick, fearful glance around
the big room assured her that she was alone. She sat up slowly, her
eyes shadowy with pain, looking listlessly at the luxurious
appointments of the tent. She looked dry-eyed, she had no tears left.
They had all been expended when she had grovelled at his feet imploring
the mercy he had not accorded her. She had fought until the unequal
struggle had left her exhausted and helpless in his arms, until her
whole body was one agonised ache from the brutal hands that forced her
to compliance, until her courageous spirit was crushed by the
realisation of her own powerlessness, and by the strange fear that the
man himself had awakened in her, which had driven her at last moaning
to her knees. And the recollection of her abject prayers and weeping
supplications filled her with a burning shame. She loathed herself with
bitter contempt. Her courage had broken down; even her pride had failed
her.
She wound her arms about her knees and hid her face against them.
"Coward! Coward!" she whispered fiercely. Why had she not scorned him?
Or why had she not suffered all that he had done to her in silence? It
would have pleased him less than the frenzied entreaties that had only
provoked the soft laugh that made her shiver each time she heard it.
She shivered now. "I thought I was brave," she murmured brokenly. "I am
only a coward, a craven."
She lifted her head at last and looked around her. The room was a
curious mixture of Oriental luxury and European comfort. The lavish
sumptuousness of the furnishings suggested subtly an unrestrained
indulgence, the whole atmosphere was voluptuous, and Diana shrank from
the impression it conveyed without exactly understanding the reason.
There was nothing that jarred artistically, the rich hangings all
harmonised, there were no glaring incongruities such as she had seen in
native palaces in India. And everything on which her eyes rested drove
home relentlessly the hideous fact of her position. His things were
everywhere. On a low, brass-topped table by the bed was the half-smoked
cigarette he had had between his lips when he came to her. The pillow
beside her still bore the impress of his head. She looked at it with a
growing horror in her eyes until an uncontrollable shuddering seized
her and she cowered down, smothering the cry that burst from her in the
soft pillows and dragging the silken coverings up around her as if
their thin shelter were a protection. She lived again through every
moment of the past night until thought was unendurable, until she felt
that she would go mad, until at last, worn out, she fell asleep.
It was midday when she awoke again. This time she was not alone. A
young Arab girl was sitting on the rug beside her looking at her with
soft brown eyes of absorbed interest As Diana sat up she rose to her
feet, salaaming, with a timid smile.
"I am Zilah, to wait on Madame," she said shyly in stumbling French,
holding out a wrap that Diana recognised with wonder as her own. She
looked behind her. Her suit-cases were lying near her, open, partially
unpacked. The missing baggage camels had been captured first, then. She
was at least to be allowed the use of her own belongings. A gleam of
anger shot into her tired eyes and she swung round with a sharp
question; but the Arab girl shook her head uncomprehendingly, drawing
back with frightened eyes; and to all further questions she remained
silent, with down-drooping mouth like a scared child. She was little
more. She evidently only half understood what was said to her and could
give no answer to what she did understand, and turned away with obvious
relief when Diana stopped speaking. She went across the tent and pulled
aside a curtain leading into a bathroom that was as big and far better
equipped than the one that Diana had had in the Indian tent, and which,
up to now, had seemed the last word in comfort and luxury. Though the
girl's knowledge of French was limited her hands were deft enough, but
her ignorance of the intricacies of a European woman's toilette was
very apparent, and constantly provoked in her a girlish giggle that
changed hurriedly to a startled gravity when Diana looked at her.
Laughter was very far from Diana, but she could not help smiling now
and again at her funny mistakes.
The girl, with her big, wondering eyes, her shy, hesitating French and
childish curiosity, in some indefinable way gave back to Diana the
self-control that had slipped from her. Her pride reasserted itself,
rigidly suppressing any sign of feeling or emotion that could be
noticed by the gentle, inquisitive eyes fixed on her.
The hot bath that took the soreness out of her limbs brought back the
colour to her face and lips. She even tubbed her head, rubbing the
glistening curls dry with fierce vigour, striving to rid herself of the
contamination that seemed to have saturated her. Yet the robes against
which they had been pressed were spotless, and the hands that had held
her were fastidiously clean, even to the well-kept nails.
She came back into the bedroom to find Zilah on her knees poring over
her scanty but diverse wardrobe with bewilderment, fingering the
evening dresses with shy hands, and finally submitting tentatively to
Diana the tweed skirt that had been packed with her other things for
the journey when Oran should be reached. But Diana put it aside, and
pointed to the riding clothes she had worn the previous day. In them
she felt more able to face what might be before her, the associations
connected with them seemed to give her moral strength, in them she
would feel herself again--Diana the boy, not the shivering piece of
womanhood that had been born with tears and agony last night. She bit
her lip as she stamped her foot down into the long boot.
She sent the girl away at last, and noticed that she avoided passing
into the adjoining room, but vanished instead through the curtains
leading into the bathroom. Did that mean that in the outer room the
Arab Sheik was waiting? The thought banished the self-control she had
regained and sent her weakly on to the side of the bed with her face
hidden in her hands. Was he there? Her questions to the little
waiting-girl had only been concerned with the whereabouts of the camp
to which she had been brought and also of the fate of the caravan; of
the man himself she had not been able to bring herself to speak. The
strange fear that he had inspired in her filled her with rage and
humiliation. The thought of seeing him again brought a shame that was
unspeakable. But she conquered the agitation that threatened to grow
beyond restraint, pride helping her again. It was better to face the
inevitable of her own free will than be fetched whether she would or
not. For she knew now the strength of the man who had abducted her,
knew that physically she was helpless against him. She raised her head
and listened. It was very silent in the next room. Perhaps she was to
be allowed a further respite. She jerked her head impatiently at her
own hesitation. "Coward!" she whispered again contemptuously, and flung
across the room. But at the curtains she halted for a moment, then with
set face drew them aside and went through.
The respite had been granted, the room appeared to be empty. But as she
crossed the thick rugs her heart leapt suddenly into her throat, for
she became aware of a man standing in the open doorway. His back was
turned to her, but in a moment she saw that the short, slim figure in
white linen European clothes bore no resemblance to the tall Arab she
had expected to see. She thought her footsteps were noiseless, but he
turned with a little quick bow. A typical Frenchman with narrow, alert,
clean-shaven face, sleek black hair and dark restless eyes. His legs
were slightly bowed and he stooped a little; his appearance was that of
a jockey with the manners of a well-trained servant. Diana coloured
hotly under his glance, but his eyes were lowered instantly.
"Madame is doubtless ready for lunch." He spoke rapidly, but his voice
was low and pleasant. His movements were as quick and as quiet as his
voice, and in a dream Diana found herself in a few moments before a
lunch that was perfectly cooked and daintily served. The man hovered
about her solicitously, attending to her wants with dexterous hands and
watchful eyes that anticipated every need. She was bewildered, faint
from want of food, everything seemed unreal. For the moment she could
just sit still and be waited on by the soft-footed, soft-spoken
manservant who seemed such a curious adjunct to the household of an
Arab chief.
"Monseigneur begs that you will excuse him until this evening. He will
return in time for dinner," he murmured as he handed her a cous-cous.
Diana looked up blankly. "Monseigneur?"
"My master. The Sheik."
She flushed scarlet and her face hardened. Hypocritical, Oriental beast
who "begged to be excused"! She refused the last dish curtly, and as
the servant carried it away she propped her elbows on the table and
rested her aching head on her hands. A headache was among the new
experiences that had overwhelmed her since the day before. Suffering in
any form was new to her, and her hatred of the man who had made her
suffer grew with every breath she drew.
The Frenchman came back with coffee and cigarettes. He held a match for
her, coaxing the reluctant flame with patience that denoted long
experience with inferior sulphur.
"Monseigneur dines at eight. At what hour will Madame have tea?" he
asked, as he cleared away and folded up the table.
Diana choked back the sarcastic retort that sprang to her lips. The
man's quiet, deferential manner, that refused to see anything
extraordinary in her presence in his master's camp, was almost harder
to bear than flagrant impertinence would have been. That she could have
dealt with; this left her tingling with a feeling of impotence, as if a
net were gradually closing round her in whose entangling meshes her
vaunted liberty was not only threatened, but which seemed destined even
to stifle her very existence. She pulled her racing thoughts up with a
jerk. She must not think if she was going to keep any hold over herself
at all. She gave him an answer indifferently and turned her back on
him. When she looked again he was gone, and she heaved a sigh of
relief. She had chafed under his watchful eyes until the feeling of
restraint had grown unbearable.
She breathed more freely now that he was gone, flinging up her head and
jerking her shoulders back with an angry determination to conquer the
fear that made her ashamed. Natural curiosity had been struggling with
her other emotions, and she gave way to it now to try and turn the
channel of her thoughts from the fixed direction in which they tended,
and wandered round the big room. The night before she had taken in
nothing of her surroundings, her eyes had been held only by the man who
had dominated everything. Here, also, were the same luxurious
appointments as in the sleeping-room. She had knowledge enough to
appreciate that the rugs and hangings were exquisite, the former were
Persian and the latter of a thick black material, heavily embroidered
in silver. The main feature of the room was a big black divan heaped
with huge cushions covered with dull black silk. Beside the divan,
spread over the Persian rugs, were two unusually large black bearskins,
the mounted heads converging. At one end of the tent was a small
doorway, a little portable writing-table. There were one or two Moorish
stools heaped with a motley collection of ivories and gold and silver
cigarette cases and knick-knacks, and against the partition that
separated the two rooms stood a quaintly carved old wooden chest.
Though the furniture was scanty and made the tent seem even more
spacious than it really was, the whole room had an air of barbaric
splendour. The somber hangings gleaming with thick silver threads
seemed to Diana like a studied theatrical effect, a setting against
which the Arab's own white robes should contrast more vividly; she
remembered the black and silver waistcloth she had seen swathed round
him, with curling scornful lip. There was a strain of vanity in all
natives, she generalised contemptuously. Doubtless it pleased this
native's conceit to carry out the colour scheme of his tent even in his
clothes, and pose among the sable cushions of the luxurious divan to
the admiration of his retainers. She made a little exclamation of
disgust, and turned from the soft seductiveness of the big couch with
disdain.
She crossed the tent to the little bookcase and knelt beside it
curiously. What did a Francophile-Arab read? Novels, probably, that
would harmonise with the atmosphere that she dimly sensed in her
surroundings. But it was not novels that filled the bookcase. They were
books of sport and travel with several volumes on veterinary surgery.
They were all in French, and had all been frequently handled, many of
them had pencilled notes in the margins written in Arabic. One shelf
was filled entirely with the works of one man, a certain Vicomte Raoul
de Saint Hubert. With the exception of one novel, which Diana only
glanced at hastily; they were all books of travel. From the few
scribbled words in the front of each Diana could see that they had all
been sent to the Arab by the author himself--one even was dedicated to
"My friend, Ahmed Ben Hassan, Sheik of the Desert." She put the books
back with a puzzled frown. She wished, with a feeling that she could
not fathom, that they had been rather what she had imagined. The
evidence of education and unlooked-for tastes in the man they belonged
to troubled her. It was an unexpected glimpse into the personality of
the Arab that had captured her was vaguely disquieting, for it
suggested possibilities that would not have existed in a raw native, or
one only superficially coated with a veneer of civilisation. He seemed
to become infinitely more sinister, infinitely more horrible. She
looked at her watch with sudden apprehension. The day was wearing away
quickly. Soon he would come. Her breath came quick and short and the
tears welled up in her eyes.
"I mustn't! I mustn't!" she whispered in a kind of desperation. "If I
cry again I shall go mad." She forced them back, and crossing to the
big black divan that she had scorned before dropped down among the soft
cushions. She was so tired, and her head throbbed persistently.
She was asleep when the servant brought tea, but she started up as he
put the tray on a stool beside her.
"It is Madame's own tea. If she will be good enough to say if it is
made to her taste," he said anxiously, as if his whole happiness was
contained in the tiny teapot at which he was frowning deprecatingly.
His assiduity jarred on Diana's new-found jangling nerves. She
recognised that he was sincere in his efforts to please her, but just
now they only seemed an added humiliation. She longed to shout "Go
away!" like an angry schoolboy, but she managed to give him the
information he wanted, and putting cigarettes and matches by her he
went out with a little smile of satisfaction. The longing for fresh air
and the desire to see what place she had been brought to grew
irresistible as the evening came nearer. She went to the open doorway.
A big awning stretched before it, supported on lances. She stepped out
from under its shade and looked about her wonderingly. It was a big
oasis--bigger than any she had seen. In front of the tent there was an
open space with a thick belt of palm trees beyond. The rest of the camp
lay behind the Chief's tent. The place was alive with men and horses.
There were some camels in the distance, but it was the horses that
struck Diana principally. They were everywhere, some tethered; some
wandering loose, some exercising in the hands of grooms. Mounted Arabs
on the outskirts of the oasis crossed her view occasionally. There were
groups of men engaged on various duties all around her. Those who went
by near her salaamed as they passed, but took no further notice of her.
A strange look came into Diana's eyes. This was the desert indeed, the
desert as she had never expected to see it, the desert as few could
expect to see it. But the cost! She shuddered, then turned at a sudden
noise near her. A biting, screaming chestnut fury was coming past close
to the tent, taking complete charge of the two men who clung, yelling,
to his head. He was stripped, but Diana recognised him at once. The one
brief view she had had of his small, vicious head as he shot past her
elbow the evening before was written on her brain for all time. He came
to a halt opposite Diana, refusing to move, his ears laid close to his
head, quivering all over, snatching continually at his grooms, who
seemed unable to cope with him. Once he swung up on his hind legs and
his cruel teeth flashed almost into the face of one of the men, who was
taken off his guard, and who dropped on to the ground, rolling out of
the way with a howl that provoked a shout of laughter from a knot of
Arabs who had gathered to watch the usual evening eccentricities of the
chestnut. The French servant, coming from behind the tent, stopped to
speak to the man as he picked himself up and made a grab at the horse's
head, and then turned to Diana with his pleasant smile.
"He is rightly named Shaitan, Madame, for he is assuredly possessed of
a devil," he said, indicating the chestnut, who, at that moment, with a
violent plunge, broke away from the men who were holding him and headed
for the edge of the oasis with the Arabs streaming after him. "The
mounted men will catch him," he added with a little laugh, in response
to Diana's exclamation.
"Is he amusing himself, or is it really vice?" she asked.
"Pure vice, Madame. He has killed three men."
Diana looked at him incredulously, for his tone was casual and his
manner did not indicate any undue feeling.
"He ought to be shot," she said indignantly.
The man shrugged. "Monseigneur is fond of him," he said quietly.
And so because Monseigneur was fond of him the vicious animal was
surrounded with every care that his master's pleasure might not be
interfered with. Evidently the lives of his wretched people were of
less value to him than that of a favourite horse. It sounded compatible
with the mercilessness she had herself experienced. What she would not
have believed yesterday to-day seemed terribly credible. The courage
that the relief of his absence brought back was sinking fast, as fast
as the red ball glowing in the heavens was sinking down towards the
horizon. She turned from her own fearful thoughts to look at some more
horses that were being led away to the lines on the other side of the
camp.
"The horses are magnificent, but they are bigger than any Arabs I have
seen before."
"They are a special breed, Madame," replied the Frenchman. "The tribe
has been famous for them for generations. Monseigneur's horses are
known through all the Barbary States, and as far as France," he added,
with a little accent of pride creeping into his voice.
Diana looked at him speculatively. There was an inflection in his voice
each time he mentioned his master that indicated a devotion that she
was unable to accredit to the brute for whose treatment she was still
suffering. But her thoughts were broken into abruptly.
"There is Monseigneur," said the servant suddenly. He spoke as if she,
too, must be glad of his coming. Did the valet imagine for one moment
that she was here of her own free will? Or was it all a part of the
hypocrisy in which she seemed to be enveloped? She flashed one glance
at the horseman riding through the belt of trees that fringed the oasis
and an icy perspiration chilled her from head to foot. She shrank back
under the awning and into the coolness of the tent, raging against the
mastering fear that she could not overcome. But just inside the open
doorway she stood firm; even her fear could make her go no further. She
would meet him here, not cowering into the inner room like a trembling
creature skulking in the furthest corner of its cage. That much pride
at least was left.
From the shelter of the tent she watched the troop arrive at the open
space before her. The horse the Sheik was riding was jet black, and
Diana looked from the beautiful creature's satiny coat to the man's
white robes with angry contempt.
"Black and white! Black and white! Mountebank!" she muttered through
her clenched teeth. Then as he swung to the ground every thought fell
from her but the terror he inspired. She waited, breathless, the swift
racing of her heart an actual physical pain.
He lingered, fondling the great black horse, and even after it had been
led away he stood looking after it, talking to a tall young Arab who
had ridden in with him. At last he turned and came leisurely towards
the tent. He paused at the door to speak to the Frenchman, a
picturesque, barbaric figure, with flowing robes and great white cloak,
the profile of his lean face clean cut against the evening sky, the
haughty poise of his head emphasised by the attitude in which he was
standing, arrogant, dominating. He moved his hands when he spoke with
quick, expressive gestures, but his voice was slow and soft, pitched in
a deep musical key, but with all its softness unmistakably
authoritative. He pointed with outstretched, steady hand to something
beyond her line of vision, and as he turned to enter the tent he
laughed softly, and she shivered involuntarily. Then he swept in, and
she drew back from him with lowered eyes. She would not look at him;
she would not meet his look. His presence was an offence, she was
scorched with shame. Every fibre of her being cried out in protest at
his proximity. She wished with passionate fierceness that she could
die. She shook feverishly and caught her quivering lip between her
teeth to keep it still, and the red-gold curls lay wet against her
forehead. Her breast heaved stormily with the rapid beating of her
heart, but she held herself proudly erect. He crossed the tent with a
long noiseless stride.
"I hope that Gaston took care of you properly and gave you everything
that you wanted?" he said easily, stooping to a little table to light a
cigarette. The coolness of his words and manner were like a dash of
cold water. She had been prepared for anything but this calm
nonchalance in a situation that was intolerable. His tone conveyed the
perfunctory regret of a host for an unavoidable absence. Her fear gave
way to rage, her body stiffened, her hands clenched.
"Is it not time that this ended? Haven't you done enough?" she burst
out passionately. "Why have you committed this outrage?"
A thin thread of smoke drifted towards her, as if the hand holding the
cigarette had moved in her direction in one of the gestures that she
had noticed outside, but there was no answer. His silence infuriated
her and she grew utterly reckless.
"Do you think that you can keep me here, you fool? That I can vanish
into the desert and no notice be taken of my disappearance--that no
inquiries will be made?"
"There will be no inquiries," he answered calmly.
She ground the heel of her boot into the soft carpet. "There
_will_ be inquiries," she choked furiously. "I am not such a
nonentity that nothing will be done when I am missed. The English
authorities will make the French Government find out who is
responsible, and you will have to pay for what you have done."
He laughed--the little amused laugh that sent the same cold feeling of
dread through her that she had felt the day before.
"The French Government has no jurisdiction over me. I am not subject to
it. I am an independent chief, my own master. I recognise no
government. My tribe obey me and only me."
Her shaking fingers found the handkerchief for which they were groping,
and she wiped the moisture that had gathered on the palms of her hands.
"When I am missed----" she began desperately, trying to keep a bold
front, but her assurance was leaving her.
"You will not be missed for so long that it will be too late," he
replied drily.
"Too late! What do you mean?" she gasped.
"Your own plans will stop any possibility of inquiry for some time to
come." He paused, and behind her, Diana heard him strike another match.
The banal little incident nearly snapped her nerves that were stretched
to breaking-point. She put her hands to her head to try and stop the
throbbing in her temples.
"You engaged a caravan in charge of Mustafa Ali," he went on evenly,
"to travel in the desert for a month. You set out from Biskra, but your
intention was at the end of the time to travel northward to Oran and
there dismiss the caravan. From there you were to cross to Marseilles,
then to Cherbourg, where you would embark for America to follow your
brother, who has already started."
She listened breathlessly with an ever-increasing fear growing in her
eyes. The slow, casual voice detailing her itinerary with the quiet
certainty of perfect knowledge filled her with a terror that made her
want to scream. She swayed a little as she stood, her eyes fixed on the
endless strip of desert and gold-flecked sky visible through the
opening of the tent, but she saw nothing of the undulating sand, nor
the red glory of the setting sun.
"How do you know--all--this?" she whispered with dry lips that
trembled.
"I wished to know. It was quite simple." The answer was given
carelessly, and again the thin thread of smoke drifted across her face.
Her anger flamed up again. "Is it money that you want? Are you holding
me for ransom?" But her scornful voice faltered and died away on the
last word, and it did not need his silence to convince her that it was
no question of ransom. She had only spoken to try and stifle the inner
conviction that grew despite her efforts to crush it. Her hands were
locked together tightly, her eyes still staring out unseeing at the
wonderful sunset. She felt dazed, hopeless, like a fugitive who has
turned into a cul-de-sac, hemmed in on every side; there seemed no way
out, no loophole of escape. She wrung her hands convulsively and a
great shudder shook her. Then in her despair a faint ray of hope came.
"Mustafa Ali, or one of the caravan men may have given the alarm
already in Biskra--if you have not--murdered them all," she whispered
jerkily.
"I have not murdered them all," he rejoined shortly, "but Mustafa Ali
will not give any alarm in Biskra."
"Why?" She tried to keep silent, but the question was forced from her,
and she waited tense for his answer. Tales of ruthless Arab cruelty
surged through her mind. What had been the fate of the unfortunate
caravan leader? Her eyes closed and her throat grew dry.
"There was no need for any murder," he continued sarcastically. "When
you come to know me better you will realise that I do not leave too
much to chance. 'All things are with Allah, blessed be his name.' Good!
But it is well to remember that Allah does not always concern himself
with the affairs of men, and arrange accordingly. If I had left this
affair to chance there might very easily have been, as you suggest,
murder done--though we do not call it murder in the desert. It was very
simple. _Voyons_! You paid Mustafa Ali well to guide you in the
desert. I paid him better to lead you to me. I paid him well enough to
make him content to remove himself from Biskra, where awkward questions
might be asked, to another sphere of usefulness where he is not known,
and where he can build up for himself a new reputation as a caravan
leader."
There was another silence and her hands went groping to her throat. It
had been no chance affair then--no accidental meeting that the Arab
chief had turned to his own account, but an organised outrage that had
been carefully planned from the beginning. From the very outset she had
been a dupe. She ground her teeth with rage. Her suave, subservient
guide had been leading her the whole time, not in the direction that
had been mapped out in Biskra, but towards the man who had bought him
to betray his trust. Mustafa Ali's shifting eyes, his desire to hurry
her from the oasis where they had rested at mid-day, his tone were all
explained. He had acted well. The last touch--the imaginary wound that
had toppled him slowly out of his saddle had been a masterpiece, she
reflected bitterly. Nothing had been omitted to make the attempt a
success. The horse that had been given her to ride was the Sheik's
beyond all doubt, trained to his whistle. Even her revolver had been
tampered with. She had not missed, as she had thought. She remembered
the noise, the fleeting vision she had had in the hotel at Biskra. It
had been some one in her room, Mustafa Ali himself, or one of his men,
who had stolen in and substituted the blank cartridges. The possibility
of Aubrey changing his mind and accompanying her must also have been
thought of, for the Sheik had provided against the resistance that
would certainly have then been made by the number of followers he had
brought with him--a large enough force to frustrate easily any
attempted opposition to the attack.
The net that she had felt closing round her earlier in the afternoon
seemed wrapped round her now inextricably, drawing tighter and tighter,
smothering her. She gasped for breath. The sinking sun seemed suddenly
to leap up wildly into the heavens; then she pulled herself together
with a tremendous effort. "Why have you done this?" she murmured
faintly.
Then for a moment her heart stood still, her eyes dilating. He had come
close behind her, and she waited in an agony, until he caught her to
him, crushing her against him, forcing her head back on his arm.
"Because I wanted you. Because one day in Biskra, four weeks ago, I saw
you for a few moments, long enough to know that I wanted you. And what
I want I take. You played into my hands. You arranged a tour in the
desert. The rest was easy."
Her eyes were shut, the long dark lashes quivering on her pale cheeks
so that she could not see his face, but she felt him draw her closer to
him and then his fierce kisses on her mouth. She struggled frantically,
but she was helpless, and he laughed softly as he kissed her lips, her
hair, her eyes passionately. He stood quite still, but she felt the
heavy beating of his heart under her cheek, and understood dimly the
passion that she had aroused in him. She had experienced his tremendous
strength. She realised from what he had told her that he recognised no
law beyond his own wishes, and was prepared to go to any lengths to
fulfil them. She knew that her life was in his hands, that he could
break her with his lean brown fingers like a toy is broken, and all at
once she felt pitifully weak and frightened. She was utterly in his
power and at his mercy--the mercy of an Arab who was merciless.
She gave in suddenly, lying quiet in his arms. She had touched the
lowest depths of degradation; he could do nothing more to her than he
had done. For the moment she could fight no further, she was worn out
and utterly weary. A numb feeling of despair came over her and with it
a sense of unreality, as if it were a hideous nightmare from which she
would wake, for the truth seemed too impossible, the setting too
theatrical. The man himself was a mystery. She could not reconcile him
and the barbaric display in which he lived with the evidences of
refinement and education that the well-worn books in the tent evinced.
The fastidious ordering of his appointments puzzled her; it was strange
to find in such a place. A dozen incongruities that she had noticed
during the day crowded into her recollection until her head reeled. She
turned from them wearily; she was too tired to think, too spent in mind
and body. And with the despair a kind of indifference stole over her.
She had suffered so much that nothing more mattered.
The strong arms around her tightened slowly. "Look at me," he said in
the soft slow voice that seemed habitual to him, and which contrasted
oddly with the neat, clipping French that he spoke. She shivered and
her dark lashes flickered for a moment. "Look at me." His voice was
just as slow, just as soft, but into it had crept an inflection that
was unmistakable.
Twenty-four hours ago Diana Mayo had not known the meaning of the word
fear, and had never in all her life obeyed any one against her
inclination, but in twenty-four hours she had lived through years of
emotions. For the first time she had pitted her will against a will
that was stronger than her own, for the first time she had met an
arrogance that was greater and a determination that was firmer than
hers. For the first time she had met a man who had failed to bow to her
wishes, whom a look had been powerless to transform into a willing
slave. In a few hours that had elapsed she had learned fear, a terrible
fear that left her sick with apprehension, and she was learning
obedience. Obedient now, she forced herself to lift her eyes to his,
and the shamed blood surged slowly into her cheeks. His dark,
passionate eyes burnt into her like a hot flame. His encircling arms
were like bands of fire, scorching her. His touch was torture.
Helpless, like a trapped wild thing, she lay against him, panting,
trembling, her wide eyes fixed on him, held against their will.
Fascinated she could not turn them away, and the image of the brown,
handsome face with its flashing eyes, straight, cruel mouth and strong
chin seemed searing into her brain. The faint indefinite scent of an
uncommon Turkish tobacco clung about him, enveloping her. She had been
conscious of the same scent the previous day when he had held her in
his arms during the wild ride across the desert.
He smiled down at her suddenly. "_Bon Dieu_! Do you know how
beautiful you are?" he murmured. But the sound of his voice seemed to
break a spell that had kept her dumb. She struggled again to free
herself.
"Let me go!" she cried piteously, and it was her complete immunity from
him that she prayed for, but he chose wilfully to misunderstand her.
The passion faded from his eyes, giving place to a gleam of mockery.
"There is plenty of time. Gaston is the most discreet servant. We shall
hear him when he comes," he said with a low laugh.
But she persisted with the courage of desperation. "When will you let
me go?"
With an exclamation of impatience he put her from him roughly, and
going to the divan flung himself down on the cushions, lit another
cigarette and picked up a magazine that was lying on an inlaid stool
beside him.
She bit her lips to keep back the hysterical sobs that rose in her
throat, nerving herself with clenched hands, and followed him. "You
_must_ tell me. I _must_ know. When will you let me go?"
He turned a page with deliberation, and flicked the ash from his
cigarette before looking up. A heavy scowl gathered on his face, and
his eyes swept her from head to foot with a slow scrutiny that made her
shrink. "When I am tired of you," he said coldly.
She shuddered violently and turned away with a little moan, stumbling
blindly towards the inner room, but as she reached the curtains his
voice arrested her. He had thrown aside the magazine and was lying back
on the divan, his long limbs stretched out indolently, his hands
clasped behind his head.
"You make a very charming boy," he said lightly, with a faint smile,
"but it was not a boy that I saw in Biskra. You understand?"
Beyond the curtains she stood a moment, shaking all over, her face
hidden in her hands, able to relax a little the hold she was keeping on
herself. Yes! She understood, plainly enough. The understanding had
already been forced upon her. It was an order from one who was prepared
to compel his commands, to make herself more attractive with all that
it implied in the eyes of the man who held her in his power and who
looked at her as no other man had ever dared to look, with appraising
criticism that made her acutely conscious of her sex, that made her
feel like a slave exposed for sale in a public market.
She must take off the boyish clothes that somehow seemed to lend her
courage and substitute, to gratify the whim of the savage in the next
room, the womanly dress that revealed more intimately the slender lines
of her figure and intensified the uncommon beauty of her face.
She went to the dressing table with lagging feet and stared resentfully
at the white face and haggard eyes that looked back at her from the
mirror. It was like the face of a stranger. Aubrey's words came back to
her with an irony that was horrible. To-night she did not dress to
please herself. Her face was set, her eyes almost black with rage, but
behind the rage there was lurking apprehension. She started at every
sound that came from the adjoining room. Her fingers, wet with
perspiration, seemed almost unable to fulfil their task. She hated him,
she hated herself, she hated her beauty that had brought this horror
upon her. She would have rebelled if she had dared, but instinctively
she hurried--fear had already driven her so far. But when she was ready
she did not move from the table beside which she stood. Fear had forced
her to haste, but her still struggling pride would not permit her to
obey her fear any further. She raised her eyes to the glass again,
glowering angrily at the pale reflection, and the old obstinacy mingled
with the new pain that filled them. Must she endure his mocking glance
with chalk-like cheeks and eyes like a beaten hound? Had she not even
courage enough left to hide the fear that filled her with
self-contempt? The wave of anger that went through her rushed the
colour into her face and she leaned nearer the glass with a little
murmur of satisfaction that stopped abruptly as her fingers gripped the
edge of the table, and she continued staring into the mirror not at her
own face, but at the white robes that appeared behind her head,
blotting out the limited view she had had of the room.
The Sheik was standing behind her. He had come with the peculiar
noiseless tread that she had noticed before. He swung her round to look
at her and she writhed under his eyes of admiration, straining from him
as far as his grip allowed. Holding her with one hand he took her chin
in the other and tilted her face up to his with a little smile. "Don't
look so frightened. I don't want anything more deadly than some soap
and water. Surely even an Arab may be allowed to wash his hands?"
His mocking voice and his taunt of fear stung her, but she would not
answer and, with a laugh and a shrug, he lot her go, picking up a razor
from the table and lounging into the bathroom.
With crimson cheeks Diana fled into the outer room, His manner could
not have been more casual if she had been his wife a dozen years. She
waited for him in a tumult of emotions, but with the advent of Gaston
and dinner he returned to the attitude of dispassionate, courteous host
that he had assumed when he first came in. He was a few minutes late,
and apologised gravely as he sat down opposite her. He maintained the
attitude throughout dinner, and conscious of the watching manservant
Diana made herself reply to his easy conversation.
He talked mainly of the desert and the sport that it offered, as if he
had studied her tastes and chosen the topic to please her. He spoke
well; what he said was interesting, and showed complete knowledge of
the subject, and at any other time Diana would have listened fascinated
and absorbed, but now the soft, slow, cultured voice only seemed to add
to the incongruity of the situation. The role of willing guest that he
was forcing upon her was almost more than she could play, and the
necessity of sitting still and responding was taxing her endurance to
the utmost. And all the time she was aware acutely of his constant
surveillance. Reluctantly her own furtive glance was drawn frequently
to his face, and always his dark fierce eyes were watching her with a
steadiness that racked her nerves, till she was reminded irresistibly
of an exhibition that she had seen in a circus in Vienna, where a lion
tamer had concluded an unusually daring performance by dining in the
lions' cage, surrounded by savage snarling brutes very different from
the sleepy half-drugged creatures ordinarily shown. Interested in the
animals, she had gone behind with Aubrey after the performance, and
while fondling some tiny lion cubs that had been brought for her to see
had chatted with the tamer, a girl little older than herself. She had
been somewhat unapproachable until she had realised from Diana's
friendly manner that her questions were prompted by real interest and
not mere curiosity, and had unbent with surprising swiftness, accepting
Diana's proffered cigarettes and taking her to see her special lions,
who were boxed for the night. Diana had wandered up and down before the
narrow cages, looking at the big brutes still restless from the show,
rubbing her cheek on the soft little round head of the cub she was
holding in her arms, smiling at its sleepy rasping purr.
"Are you ever afraid?" she had asked suddenly--"not of the ordinary
performance, but of that last act, when you dine all alone with them?"
The girl shrugged her shoulders, blowing a little cloud of smoke into
the cub's face, and her eyes had met Diana's slowly over his little
yellow body. "One does not taste very much," she had said drily.
And it was so with Diana. She had eaten mechanically everything that
had been put before her, but she had tasted nothing. She had one
thought in her mind that excluded everything else--to hide from the
probing eyes that watched her ceaselessly the overmastering fear that
augmented every moment. One thing she had noticed during the meal. For
her only the servant poured out the light French wine that he had
brought. Her eyes wandered to the Sheik's empty glass, and meeting her
glance he smiled, with a little inclination.
"Excuse me. I do not drink wine. It is my only virtue," he added, with
a sudden gleam leaping into his eyes that drove the blood into her
cheeks and her own eyes on to her plate.
She had forgotten that he was an Arab.
The dinner seemed interminable, and yet she wished that it would never
end. While the servant was in the room she was safe; the thought of his
going sent a cold shudder through her. With the coffee came a huge
Persian hound, almost upsetting the Frenchman in the entrance in his
frantic endeavour to precede him through the doorway. He flung his long
grey body across the Sheik's knees with a whine of pleasure and then
turned his head to growl at Diana. But the growl died away quickly, and
he lumbered down and came to her side curiously, eyeing her for a
moment and then thrusting his big head against her.
The Sheik laughed. "You are honoured. Kopec makes few friends."
She did not answer. The natural reply was almost certain to provoke a
retort that she did not desire, so she remained silent, smoothing the
hound's rough coat. With her heart turning slowly to lead she lingered
over her coffee until there was no further possible pretext for
remaining at the table, then rose with a short, sharp sigh.
For some minutes the Sheik had sat silent, his own coffee long since
finished. He made no comment when she got up, and went himself to the
big divan, followed by the hound, who had gone back to him as soon as
he moved.
Diana turned to the little bookcase, snatching at the opportunity it
offered for further silence, and took a book at random. She did not
know what she was looking at, she did not care. She only prayed
fervently that she might be left alone, that the sudden silent fit that
had come over him might continue.
Near her Gaston was clearing away the table and as he finished he
paused to speak to his master. Diana heard the words "le petit Sheik,"
but the rest was in Arabic and unintelligible to her. The Sheik frowned
with a gesture of annoyance, then nodded, and the servant left the
tent. A few moments after a voice that she had not heard before made
her look up.
The young Arab who had ridden in with the Sheik was standing beside the
divan. The fierce eyes that were watching her every movement met hers,
and his cigarette was waved towards the young man. "My lieutenant,
Yusef, a son of the desert with the soul of a _flaneur._ His body
is here with me, but his heart is on the _trottoirs_ of Algiers."
The tall lad laughed and salaamed profoundly, then straightened
himself, posing magnificently until a curt word from the Sheik recalled
him to his errand and his swagger changed swiftly to a deference of
which the significance was not lost on Diana. The Arab might unbend to
his people if it so pleased him, but he kept them well in hand. She
looked at the lieutenant as he stood before his chief. He was tall and
slender as a girl, with an air of languid indolence that was obviously
a pose, for it was slipping from him now fast as he talked. His face
was strikingly handsome, only saved from effeminacy by a firm chin. He
was patently aware of his good looks. But he was also patently in awe
of his chief, and the news that he brought was apparently not welcome.
Through her thick lashes Diana watched them intently. The younger man
voluble, gesticulating, at times almost cringing. The Sheik silent,
except for an occasional word, the heavy scowl back on his face,
growing blacker every moment. At last with a shrug of impatience he got
up and they went out together, the hound following them. Diana subsided
on to the thick rug beside the bookcase. For a moment again she was
alone, free of the watching eyes that seemed to be burning into her all
the time, free of the hated proximity. She dropped her head on her
knees with a little whimper of weariness. For a moment she need not
check the tide of misery that rushed over her. She was tired in mind
and body, exhausted with the emotion that had shaken her until she knew
that no matter what happened in the future the Diana of yesterday was
dead, and her new self was strange and unfamiliar. She did not trust
it; she feared its capacity for maintaining the struggle she had
resolved upon. The old courageous self had never failed her, this new
shrinking fearful personality filled her with distrust. Her confidence
in herself was gone. Her contempt of herself was unutterable. The
strength that remained was not sufficient to conquer the fear that had
taken so strong a hold upon her. She could only hope to hide it, to
deny him at least that much satisfaction. She had grovelled at his feet
once and it had amused him. He had laughed! She would die rather than
afford him a similar amusement. She could never wipe out the
recollection of her cowardice; he would remember always, and so would
she; but she could atone for it if her strength held. And she prayed
that it might hold, until a sob broke from her and her hands cramped
around her knees. She pushed her hair off her forehead with a heavy
sigh, and she looked back over her shoulder at the empty room. It had
changed since this morning in the indefinable way a strange room does
change after a few hours' association. If she could leave it now and
never see it again in all her life no single detail of it would ever be
forgotten. Its characteristics had been stamped upon her as familiarly
as if the hours passed in it had been years. And yesterday was years
ago, when the poor silly fool that had been Diana Mayo had ridden
blindly into the trap from which her boasted independence had not been
able to save her. She had paid heavily for the determination to ignore
the restrictions of her sex laid upon her and the payment was not yet
over. Her tired body shrank from the struggle that must recommence so
soon. If he would only spare her until this numbing weariness that made
her so powerless should lessen. She heard his voice at the door and her
icy fingers grasped at the book that had slipped to the ground. The
thick rugs deadened the sound of his movements, but she knew
instinctively that he had come in and gone back to the divan where he
had been sitting before. She knew that he was looking at her. She could
feel his eyes fixed on her and she quivered with the consciousness of
his stare. She waited, shivering, for him to speak or move. His methods
of torture were diverse, she thought with dreary bitterness. Behind the
tent in the men's lines a tom-tom was beating, and the irregular rhythm
seemed hammering inside her own head. She could have shrieked with the
agony of it.
"Come here--Diane."
She started, for a moment hardly recognising the Gallic rendering of
her name, and then flushed angrily without answering or moving. It was
a very little thing to stir her after all that had been done, but the
use of her name flamed the anger that had been almost swamped in fear.
The proprietory tone in his voice roused all her inherent obstinacy.
She was not his to go at his call. What he wanted he must take--she
would never give voluntarily. She sat with her hands gripped tightly in
her lap, breathing rapidly, her eyes dark with apprehension.
"Come here," he repeated sharply.
Still she took no notice, but the face that he could not see was
growing very white.
"I am not accustomed to having my orders disobeyed," he said at last,
very slowly.
"And I am not accustomed to obeying orders," she retorted fiercely,
though her lips were trembling.
"You will learn." The sinister accent of his voice almost shattered her
remaining courage.
She crouched, gasping, on the ground, the same horrible terror that had
come to her last night stealing over her irresistibly, paralysing her.
Waiting, listening, agonising, the tom-tom growing louder and
louder--or was it only the throbbing in her own head? With a choking
cry she leaped to her feet suddenly and fled from him, back till the
side of the tent stopped her and she stood, with wide-flung arms,
gripping the black and silver hangings until he reached her.
Stooping he disengaged her clinging fingers from the heavy drapery and
drew her hands slowly together up to his breast with a little smile.
"Come," he whispered, his passionate eyes devouring her.
She fought against the fascination with which they dominated her,
resisting him dumbly with tight-locked lips till he held her
palpitating in his arms.
"Little fool," he said with a deepening smile. "Better me than my men."
The gibe broke her silence.
"Oh, you brute! You brute!" she wailed, until his kisses silenced her.
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